The Loudest Sound Trilogy

Unspoken words. Unfulfilled desires. So overwhelming, so deafening. Living out the horrors, the ongoing circle of birth and death. Coming to terms with the futility and suffering in the world is heart

… deep hurt …

What we do and who we are doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of the universe, it’s just a matter of existentialism. Our great efforts and ambitions, all the trivialities of life, eventually lay in a solemn hearse. Fleeting moments of horrifying fear remind us death can always be in the next instant, on the next corner, at the top of our scratched love skyscraper. Traumatic events always come back to haunt us. We fumble towards ecstasy, see the flickering light in the devouring darkness, dig the pointlessness of war and all the fighting like frustrating graves. Even our short lives and each moment in them can feel like a hundred years, but still a short-term effect.

It doesn't matter if we all die
Ambition in the back of a black car
In a high building there is so much to do
Going home time, a story on the radio

Something small falls out of your mouth and we laugh
A prayer for something better
A prayer for something better

Please love me, meet my mother
But the fear takes hold
Creeping up the stairs in the dark
Waiting for the death blow
Waiting for the death blow

Waiting for the death blow

Stroking your hair as the patriots are shot
Fighting for freedom on the television
Sharing the world with slaughtered pigs
Have we got everything? She struggles to get away

The pain and creeping feeling
Little black haired girl
Waiting for Saturday
The death of her father pushing her
Pushing her white face into the mirror
Aching inside me and turn me around
Just like the old days, just like the old days
Just like the old days

Just like the old days

Caressing an old man and painting a lifeless face
Just a piece of new meat in a clean room
The soldiers close in under a yellow moon
All shadows and deliverance
Under a black flag
A hundred years of blood
Crimson, the ribbon tightens 'round my throat
I open my mouth and my head bursts open
A sound like a tiger thrashing in the water
Thrashing in the water

Over and over
We die one after the other
Over and over
We die one after the other
One after the other, one after the other
One after the other, one after the other

It feels like a hundred years
A hundred years, a hundred years
A hundred years, a hundred years

One Hundred Years

"Kiss me goodbye"
Pushing out before I sleep
Can't you see I try?
Swimming the same deep water as you is hard
"The shallow drowned lose less than we" you breathe
The strangest twist upon your lips
"And we shall be together
And we shall be together"

"Kiss me goodbye
Bow your head and join with me"
And face pushed deep
Reflections meet
The strangest twist upon your lips
Disappear
The ripples clear
And softly breaks against your feet
Softly breaks the mirror sweet
"So we shall be together"

"Kiss me goodbye"
Pushing out before I sleep
It's lower now
And slower now
The strangest twist upon your lips
But I don't see
And I don't feel
But softly hold up silently
My hands before my fading eyes
And in my eyes
Your smile
The very last thing before I go
The very last thing before I go
The very last thing before I go

I will kiss you
I will kiss you
I will kiss you forever
On nights like this
I will kiss you
I will kiss you
And we shall be together

The Same Deep Water As You (Remastered)

Side by side in silence
They pass away the day
So comfortable, so habitual
And so nothing left to say

Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say

Side by side in silence
His thoughts echo round
He looks up at the sky
She looks down at the ground

Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground

Side by side in silence
They wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy
And he loves her as a girl

Loves her as a girl

And side by side in silence
Without a single word

It's the loudest sound
It's the loudest sound

It's the loudest sound I ever heard

The Loudest Sound

… Yeah, I’m all about frustration from everything that I have made and has already happened and hasn’t yet. The result hasn’t led to anything. But, despite the abysmal failure, all I know my love hasn’t been in vain, I must keep fighting this sickness, find a cure …