What do you mean to me? I mean, what does air mean to my lungs? This silent night?Are you my biggest fan who feels this way? Because I am more than your yougest fan! I must admit, I kinda hate to be on my love quest for temporary relief from my emotional distress. I flock to your awesome shows because you bring me joy and comfort, in other lovebird words, home. And because you’re awwtisticking it to me. You’re always there for me, you’re my supernatural escape from reality, a magickal remedy for my sorrows, you are my baby!
Antidote is a genuine remedy to counteract the really bad effects of poison, loss, death, hate.
Me Dee Sin (Antidote) is to LOVE & to be LOVED, to counteract the horrific, tumultuous effects of the poison, loss, death, hate applause crowd. Baby, we need it more than anyone else, we need the antidote for the snake's venom, to relieve, prevent, counteract … to be able to live and love & to be lived and loved. Just to breathe …
Lead Me On
I was born to love you
You were born wild and free
I was made to find you
But your heart is constantly runnin', just never toward me
So why don't you just lead me on?
'Cause something is better than nothing at all
Yeah, I want you to lead me on
'Cause something, yeah, something is better than nothing
Something, your something is better than nothing at all
It's hard to tame wild horses (It's hard to tame wild horses)
It's hard to stay sound asleep (Sound asleep)
The thought of you is torture (The thought of you is torture)
But your heart is constantly runnin', just never toward me
So why don't you just lead me on?
'Cause something is better than nothing at all
Yeah, I want you to lead me on
'Cause something, yeah, something is better than nothing
Yeah, something, your something is better than nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all
So why don't just lead me on?
'Cause something is better than nothing at all, at all, at all
So why don't you just lead me on?
'Cause something, yeah, something is better than nothing
Your something, your something is better than nothing
Your something, your something is better than nothing
Just a little something, just something is better than nothing at all
Ego Talking
Ninety percent of the time
I'd say I'm pretty mature for my age
And it's only half of a lie
When I say you'll find someone better someday
So, go, do it all, have the time of your life
And kiss every girl, let 'em all stay the night
If you're movin' on, I'll still lie to myself
That you'll never love anybody else, right?
Oh-oh, you'll never fuck somebody hotter, right?
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Hope my lips haunt you for life
Hearin' my name twists the knife
Hopin' you stay brokenhearted
But that's just my ego talkin'
I'm happy for you
If they look just like a version of me
Ten out of ten, what a view
But not as good as me stripping out of your t-shirt
So, go, do it all, have the time of your life
And kiss every girl, let 'em all stay the night
If you're movin' on, I'll still lie, lie, l-lie
If you fall for someone else, you're just killin' time, right?
Oh-oh, and she's just another seat filler, right?
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Hope my lips haunt you for life
Hearin' my name twists the knife
Hopin' you stay brokenhearted
But that's just my ego talkin'
That's just my, that's just my
That's just my ego talkin'
Screamin', fightin', swingin', cryin'
Bleedin' tonight
That's just my ego talkin'
Hurtin', stallin'
My heart is yours 'til I die
And you'll never love anybody else, right?
Crush
Bleedin'
First time we cut was the deepest
Miss all the lies and the secrets
Crave it, need it, I'm
Floatin'
Best when I'm lost in your ocean
I'm wet from all the emotion
So deep, oh shit
Call it quits, pull the tourniquet
I'm a masochist, rip out my guts
Won't you crush me under the weight of your body?
You know I put you above me, I wanna cry
When you fuck me, I want your kisses to cut me
Come on, I dare you to love me, wonderin' why
Won't you crush me?
Won't you crush me?
It's a circuit
Loopin' around like a circus
Push me around, put your tongue in my mouth
Take me back to the ground, baby, I ain't no virgin (Uh-uh)
I'm not really one that'll play it down
You're the only one that I think about, mm-mm
I see heaven when you crush me under the weight of your body
You know I put you above me, I wanna cry
When you fuck me, I want your kisses to cut me
Come on, I dare you to love me, wonderin' why
Won't you crush me?
Oh, you crush me
Part of me wants forever
You're hard-wired in my brain
Part of me knows better
Maybe I'll listen someday
Part of me wants forever
You're hard-wired in my brain (Oh)
But part of me knows lettin' you go
Will crush me, crush me
Pretending
One, two, three, four
We're talking small, like, "How you been?"
Like, "How's your mom and all your friends?"
We're catching up about all the bullshit trending
You crack a joke 'bout kissin' me
'Bout going there, 'bout lovin' me
I laugh it off as if that shit wouldn't wreck me
As if I'm not what you're waiting for
Like I'm not in your ending
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on pretending
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Yeah, for now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (We'll both keep on pretending)
You drop me off, your windows down
I'm lookin' in, you're lookin' out
I say goodnight as if my heart isn't wrenchin'
I'll say it now (I'll say it now), "You're everything" (You're everything)
"Turn back around, and never leave"
I typе it out as if that's the text I'm sending
As if I'm not what you'rе waiting for
Like I'm not in your ending
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on pretending
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Yeah, for now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (We'll both keep on pretending)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretending)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretending)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretend, yeah, for now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (We'll both keep on pretending)
As if I'm not what you're waiting for
Like I'm not in your ending
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on
Yeah, for now, we'll both keep on pretending
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Yeah, for now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (We'll both keep on pretending, now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretending, pretending)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretend, pretending)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Keep on pretending, yeah, for now)
Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (We'll both keep on pretending)
Attached To You
I know my mom
She'd make you your favorite dish
She'd be obsessed with you quick
Like on night one
She'd welcome you in our home
Like you were one of our own, give you that East Coast love
That's why I keep her at a bird's-eye view
So she doesn't get attached to you
And I know my dad
He'd say he's tempted to grill you
If you hurt me, he'd kill you
But he's not like that
You'd probably bond over Springsteen
And how much you both love me and vintage Cadillacs
That's why I keep him at a bird's-eye view
So hе doesn't get attached to you
But comе to think of it
I think I saw the end
You didn't get a chance to choose
There I go again
Makin' up a bad excuse
So I don't get attached to you, to you
Attached to you, to you
I know my friends
They'd talk conspiracy theories
You'd know more of them weirdly
You would pass their tests
They'd see how you keep me safe
And show up for me in ways that they could never imagine
That's why I keep 'em at a bird's-eye view
So they don't get attached to you
But come to think of it
I think I saw the end
You didn't get a chance to choose
There I go again
Makin' up a bad excuse
So I don't get attached to you, to you
Attached to you, to you
I'd rather walk on glass than give someone the opportunity to hurt me
I'd run like hell
And sabotage a good thing 'cause I'm so fuckin' afraid it could be perfect
I'd rather walk on glass than give someone the opportunity to hurt me
I'd run like hell
And sabotage a good thing 'cause I'm so fuckin' afraid it could be perfect
I know myself
Antidote
Ooh, ooh
Launch me into your sky
Remind me I'm alive
Let everybody know (Ooh)
Let everybody know (Ooh)
Let everybody say what they wanna say, what they wanna say, baby
Let everybody talk (Ooh)
They all got their stones to toss (Ooh)
I know you're gonna find me if I lose my mind
I get high, I get high
I get low, I get low
You're my dopamine state
You're my sanity dose
I get high, I get high
On your new rock and roll
You're the medication I wanna take
You are my antidote (You are my)
You are my antidote
(You) You are (Are), you are (My), you are my antidote
Warm like my winter coat, oh
You're free like an open road
Yeah, you could let everybody know (Ooh)
Let everybody know (Ooh)
Let everybody say what they wanna say, what they wanna say, baby
Let everybody talk (Ooh)
They all got their stones to toss (Ooh)
I know you're gonna find me if I lose my mind
I get high, I get high
I get low, I get low
You're my dopamine state
You're my sanity dose
I get high, I get high
On your new rock and roll
You're the medication I wanna take
You are my antidote (You are my)
You are my antidote
(You) You are (Are), you are (My), you are my antidote
I get high, I get high
I get low, I get low
You're my dopamine state
You're my sanity dose
High, I get high
On your new rock and roll
You're the medication I wanna take
You are my antidote (You are my)
You are my antidote, baby (Dote)
Yes, you are, yes, you are, yes, you are
(You are my) You are my antidote
(You) You are (Are), you are (My), you are my antidote
(You) You are (Are), you are (My), you are my antidote
Ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
Maybe I Am
Here I fuckin' go again
Holdin' up a match to everything I love
I'm burnin' down my world again, just because
Flyin' down the interstate
It's hard to see the road in front of all these tears
Your words are swirlin' in my brain, all I hear
You say that I'm a crazy bitch
I'm sick, I'm permanently numb
You say that I'm a narcissist
As if I haven't heard that one
You say I'm ruining my life on purpose
Just because I can
Maybe I, maybe I am
Maybe I, maybe I am
Everything you say I am
Maybe it's the truth and I'm delusional
I'm talking to myself again, all I hear
All I hear
You say that I'm a crazy bitch
I'm sick, I'm permanently numb
You say that I'm a narcissist
As if I haven't heard that one
You say I'm ruining my life on purposе
Just because I can
Maybe I, maybе I am
Maybe I, maybe I am
Maybe I am (Ooh-ooh, ooh)
Maybe I am (Ooh-ooh, ooh)
Maybe I am (Ooh-ooh, ooh)
(Maybe I am, so what? Maybe I fuckin' am)
You say I'm ruining my life on purpose
Just because I can
Maybe I am
Doing Better
Your girlfriend never thanked me for being such a pyro
Lighting matches with my eyes closed
Kerosene in your mouth
Drove you so far away
It's like I went and dropped you off at her house
I know you kept my number in case you wonder
Like, "Where is she now?"
You say you wanna check in
You're only checking on how I turned out
I'm doing better, I don't know if you remember
When I told you in September that you wouldn't recognize me
When I'm in public and I just got back from London
Probably spent a couple hundred on some bougie fuckin' IV's
I went and saw a psychic, went on a pussy diet
I always thought that I'd be happier if I could buy it
I'm doing better, I've been lookin' for my center
But my tummy still hurts, why does better feel worse? Ooh
Better feels worse, ooh
Better feels worse
Your girlfriend never thanked me for making her go viral
Fuck it, I'm her idol
I get sad and spiral
Yeah, I'll buy a new whip
But you'll never see me take the high road
I know you kept my number in case you wonder
Like, "Where is she now?"
You say you wanna check in
You're only checking on how I turned out
I'm doing better, I don't know if you remember
When I told you in December that you wouldn't recognize me
After the glow up, I was learnin' how to grow up
Had a wet dream then I woke up, I was on a stage with Miley
I felt like I was flyin', I felt the stars alignin'
I always thought that if I ever got this high, I'd like it
I'm doing better, I've been lookin' for my center
But my tummy still hurts, why does better feel worse? Ooh
Then why does better feel worse? Oh
Ooh, better feels worse
Smilin' on the outside, cryin' on the inside
You would never know 'cause I'm posing with my good side
Smilin' on the outside, dyin' on the inside
Smilin' on the outside, dyin' on the inside
You would never know, I'm posing with my good side
I'm doing better, I've been lookin' for my center
But my tummy still hurts, why does better feel worse? Oh
Joyride
Ooh-ooh
We're standin' in the kitchen
We just fucked for like six hours
Now you're gettin' in my head
Now you're drippin' down my leg
I was watchin' you bite down on a peach
I was lickin' a spoonful of peanut butter
Then you kissed me and I thought
"How the fuck do these things go so damn good together?"
I, I, I, I, die
You were in my dreams
Now I'm in your bed
I, I, I, I, die
Went from unexpected
Now I'm just forgettin' all my exes
I think she's out of my league, and I'm out of my mind
Now we're both going down, shooting stars out the sky
Nobody catches the girl, double dare you to try
Steal the keys to my heart, take it out for a joyride
Ooh-ooh (For a joyride, for a joyride)
Nowadays, balance can be hard to find
Who knew I'd meet somebody with a mind as perverted as mine?
You, you don't have to be the rest of my life
Just take it out, take it out for a ride
Yeah, we're on a highway doin' ninety in a forty-five
Won't you kiss me hard in a Jersey dive?
Love me forever like a husband
Fuck me now like a boyfriend, right?
I, I, I, I, die
You were in my dreams
Now I'm in your bed
I, I, I, I, die
Went from unexpected
Now I'm just forgettin' all my exes
I think she's out of my league, and I'm out of my mind
Now we're both going down, shooting stars out the sky
Nobody catches the girl, double dare you to try
Steal the keys to my heart, take it out for a joyride
(Let's take it out for a joyride, for a joyride, ride)
(Take it out for a joyride)
(Let's take it out for a joyride, for a joyride)
I think she's out of my league, and I'm out of my mind
Now we're both going down, shooting stars out the sky
Nobody catches the girl, double dare you to try
Steal the keys to my heart, take it out for a joyride
Two Things Can Be True
Did we take it too far? Maybe
Did I regret it then? No
Do I regret it now that we don't talk? Yeah
Did I want more than friends? Maybe
Should I have gotten involved? No
But did I like it every time we touched? Yeah
Now you found someone else to hold you
In all the ways I couldn't
It hurts, he makes you happier
You always wanted happier
I want that for you
Two things can be true
He can love you, baby, and, baby, I can too
Things, they can be true
You can have his body and still think of mine too
You can still call mе up at night
He can still be the lovе of your life
You can ignore me in every room and still miss me
And me too, things can be true
He can love you, baby, and, baby, I can too
Did I expect this outcome? Maybe
That you would end it first? No
Was I delusional in thinkin' I could be in your life after all of this? Yup
Someone else is holdin' you
In all the ways I couldn't (I wish it was all different)
It hurts, he makes you happier
You always wanted happier
I want that for you
Two things can be true
He can love you, baby, and, baby, I can too
Things, they can be true
You can have his body and still think of mine too
You can still call me up at night
He can still be the love of your life
You can ignore me in every room and still miss me
And me too, things can be true
He can love you, baby, and, baby, I can too
Ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
I don't wanna be him, I don't wanna be in your bed
But I still wanna be close to you, baby
I don't wanna be him, I still wanna lay in your head
Yeah, I still wanna be known to you, baby
Two things can be true
He can love you, baby, and, baby, I can too
Things, they can be true
Everything you said, did you mean it? 'Cause I do
I don’t need any pills, I need you my air in the lungs to go on. My heart is yours 'til I die …
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