Crowing At My Ventilator, Love You!
Fuck, I just wanna smile & laugh! With all my bullshit on my mind & in my heart, I can make you smile & laugh, I hope? But fuck, who's gonna do it for me? Who's gonna make me smile & laugh? Love me!
Got something funny, baby? Flood me, love me, Berry, Yummy, Wendy, Bonnie, Hally, Yippee, Skippy, Beauty, Honey, Shelly, Bunny, Perry, Halsey, Mrs Phunny, flood me, love me, ‘cause I’m such a selfish motherfucker! Okay, deliberately documenting the actual status of my genuine emotions, obviously for authenticity’s value at steady 110%, unable, or choosing not, to control my present feelings and to start to cry. Oh, and thank you for your permission to cry, it will surely help me eat the distance between us, as I’ve been starving for you for how many endless 888 months? I need a ventilator, I gotta vent …
It’s true, that happiness feels like a million miles away even when I’m doing something I really really really love, really really really enjoy, loving you, thinking about you, missing you, posting these real life love posts, feeling all these beautiful love songs. In pop psychology it might even be called a breakdown. Yeah, that’s how I feel, I feel broken down, having a breakdown. I say I don’t suffer from any stress, but who knows, ’cause I’m physically, mentally, and emotionally really really really exhausted. I gotta take it easy, but I really really really don’t know how. I guess I’m not functioning properly, but that’s not a news, lol! I won’t even bother with posting lyrics to these great songs, I just don’t want to, I can’t even be bothered right now.
Sheryl Crow - Still The Same (Lyric Video)
Sheryl Crow - If It Makes You Happy (Official Music Video)
Sheryl Crow - Soak Up The Sun
Sheryl Crow - Circles (Audio)
Sheryl Crow - Strong Enough (Official Music Video)
Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side (Official Music Video) ft. Sting
Though this involuntary body mind soul experience I’m going through can be as terrifying as laryngospasm, I hope it’s not serious or life threatening, I’m trying to make it light. I just dozed off typing heavily. While my mind has slowed down considerably, my focus now is really narrow, generally YOU, my heartbeat’s accelerated unusually. I hope I won’t collapse this time for real, as I don’t get much/enough sleep. I’m sure you will say I’m full of it, which obviously I am, as anybody else, aren’t you?, knowing me a wild horse, ah Wild Horses, by The Sundays, and Love, such beautiful songs, yet I’m a natural warrior to the very end.
Childhood living is easy to do
The things that you wanted, I bought them for you
Graceless lady, you know who I am
You know I can't let you slide through my hands
Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild horses couldn't drag me away
I watched you suffer a dull, aching pain
And now you've decided to show me the same
No sweeping exits or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind
Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away
Faith has been broken and tears must be cried
Let's do some living after we die
Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them someday
Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them someday
Love
Picture myself as a thin white child
Back to the day I was born on
They slapped me into line as it crossed my mind
I've felt better
I've felt worse
This is my life and it's all very well but never again
As they say "we've been robbed"
And don't you know that this time
Love, just love yourself like no one else
Love, it's enough
They can say what they like but they still can't take that
Distance myself from the things I'd like but
Everyone has something I need
Don't let me wake up & find
All those others leaving me behind
If you don't have a clue about life
Then I'm happy to say neither have I
Although I'm not going to shrug my shoulders & suck my thumb
This time
'cause there's something I deserve
Love, just love yourself like no one else
Love, it's enough
They can say what they like but they still can't take that
Picture my house in a postcard town
Picture a bomb in the sky
History at the door who could ask for more?
I've felt better
So kill me with love
Just love yourself like no one else
Time's so scarce where I come from
Let them say what they like 'cause they still can't take your love
Fuck, I just wanna smile & laugh! With all my bullshit on my mind & in my heart, I can make you smile & laugh, I hope? Love you!
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